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Thursday, May 3rd, 2007
5:15 pm	Malas ka ba o swerte? Malas at Swerte: Iba’t ibang pamahiin ng Pilipino. A Silkscreen Art exhibit by TEAMMANILA Start: May 4,'07 7:00pm End: Location: Pablo Gallery, Cubao X, Marikina shoe expo Be there or be malas! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
12:52 pm	quarantine sucks Wow, I'm posting again! Haven't really had a lot of time to post for a really long while. I only have the time now because I have contracted the inevitable - chickenpox. Shet. Ang payo ko sa lahat ng bata ngayon - if you know of a classmate who's got it, hug him/her or have him sneeze at you para mahawa ka na, ngayon din. Because it's no fun if you get it when you're older and you have the ability to get out of the house that you can't exercise because you might infect other people. But I'm better now - it's going on two weeks. As long as I don't touch or spit on someone who hasn't hd it, I'm fine. Shet talaga. I've probably seen all the Discovery Channel and National Geographic specials there are. Volcanoes? Done. That Yellowstone's a bitch. The Brain? Did you know that the best way to have brain surgery is when you're asleep? And now I'm watching Discovery Travel and Living with this old fart Floyd who's a great cook, he can make even ostrich meat look appetizing. But my real man is Anthony Bourdain who not only features great eating places, but funny commentary as well. And ETC? Please stop showing Rated Oh - it's only vaguely funny the first time around. Afterwards it's just irritating. Or could be that I'm hormonal - I dunno. My Mom's not here. She's up living the life in Chicago - swerte ng donya - manunuod ng Wicked the musical. Inggit ako. Hmp! And I can't go downstairs because Chissypoof hasn't had it. So I'm stuck here in my parents' room and my room in the sweltering heat. Lovely. Time for aircon. Now it's Conan. Tonight is Project Runway. Nice. Fine TV moments. And I want to buy that top I saw last Monday when my sister and my brother in law took me out (covertly) to Alabang Town Center. Sana makalabas na ako, di bale malapit na ang Sabado, Liberation day! Woohoo! And the worst worst worst part? I haven't seen Mon in close to a week (save for the brief moment when he brought me "get well soon" cupcakes. I'd rather have a hug than the cupcakes - missssssssssssss sooooo much! :( Okay, bye bye- Visit Team Manila's newly rennovated store sa Rockwell. You will be compelled to buy the hoodies!!! (hypnotizing snake eyes here). (Comment on this)
12:52 pm	quarantine sucks Wow, I'm posting again! Haven't really had a lot of time to post for a really long while. I only have the time now because I have contracted the inevitable - chickenpox. Shet. Ang payo ko sa lahat ng bata ngayon - if you know of a classmate who's got it, hug him/her or have him sneeze at you para mahawa ka na, ngayon din. Because it's no fun if you get it when you're older and you have the ability to get out of the house that you can't exercise because you might infect other people. But I'm better now - it's going on two weeks. As long as I don't touch or spit on someone who hasn't hd it, I'm fine. Shet talaga. I've probably seen all the Discovery Channel and National Geographic specials there are. Volcanoes? Done. That Yellowstone's a bitch. The Brain? Did you know that the best way to have brain surgery is when you're asleep? And now I'm watching Discovery Travel and Living with this old fart Floyd who's a great cook, he can make even ostrich meat look appetizing. But my real man is Anthony Bourdain who not only features great eating places, but funny commentary as well. And ETC? Please stop showing Rated Oh - it's only vaguely funny the first time around. Afterwards it's just irritating. Or could be that I'm hormonal - I dunno. My Mom's not here. She's up living the life in Chicago - swerte ng donya - manunuod ng Wicked the musical. Inggit ako. Hmp! And I can't go downstairs because Chissypoof hasn't had it. So I'm stuck here in my parents' room and my room in the sweltering heat. Lovely. Time for aircon. Now it's Conan. Tonight is Project Runway. Nice. Fine TV moments. And I want to buy that top I saw last Monday when my sister and my brother in law took me out (covertly) to Alabang Town Center. Sana makalabas na ako, di bale malapit na ang Sabado, Liberation day! Woohoo! Okay, bye bye- Visit Team Manila's newly rennovated store sa Rockwell. You will be compelled to buy the hoodies!!! (hypnotizing snake eyes here). (Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
1:31 pm	Team Manila opens at Rockewell Exciting news to all Graphic Design Fans, Everyone's favorite store, Team Manila Graphic Design Lifestyle will be opening a store in Rockwell this week. Now you can get Team Manila tees, bags, purses and pins any time you want. The store is located at the Lifestyle section of the mall at the second floor (formerly Hot Pink Lingerie). Head on to the store and get the chance to grab Team Manila's cool new designs and limited edition products. The store will also include tees and accessories from the line Republic to further satisfy your graphic needs. See you all there! Current Mood: Coolest ever (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
7:14 am	blah blah blah - it just keeps flowing You don't owe me anything. You don't need to do anything for me. You have no responsibility to me. I can't make you do anything that you don't want to do. And I certainly don't want to force you (however subtle the tactics) into doing anything that you wouldn't want to do on your own. I don't want to feel that you're only doing something because I expect you to. From now on it's hands-off approach. You do what you have to do and I'll do what I have to do. If it coincides then fine, great. But if it doesn't, you're under no agreement to have to make things easier for me. You don't need to do anything. Anything that you can give me or do for me is fine. I don't expect any more from you. I wouldn't want to be the reason for any discomfort on your part. Let me experience the discomfort. Let me feel like the one on the side. The one that doesn't come first, not second, not third, but one that never comes. I'll just take leftovers and scraps, don't worry, I've been doing that all my life. For me to think that maybe at this time, after all that has happened, that I would get some share of the limelight in your life would be ridiculous. Nothing has changed. You say the words like you mean them but do you really? Do you honestly feel in your heart that it's something that you want to achieve in the future? Because I do. However distant, however far, it's what I want to do with my life. But you dont seem to remember that you made that same promise to me. I'm not asking for anything now, nor will I ever ask for anything again. But a promise made should be kept, if not, nothing makes sense anymore. If it's not something that you want, and it's not something you want to get then why bother? Are you just biding your time? Are you just waiting for that next great bright light of sunshine that will pique your interest the way I did once? Are you just too polite to say it? Are you just waiting to weather a storm? I don't get it. I can feel it slipping away from you. But I don't know what I could have done or said that could possibly make that happen. I've been the same throughout. I've tested myself and my control to the limit through this time. But I feel like this is a limit that I can't achieve if you don't want me to reach it, or to do it for you. I'll need you to want it too, not just because I want it. But because deep down in your heart you know that you'll never get anything like this ever again. Couldn't you feel it? Can't you feel it anymore? I'm only putting this here because I know you'll never read it. I want to do everyhting we talked about, I want to accomplish all that. There's nothing I waould want more. But only if you want it too. Current Mood: harumph (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
5:04 pm	why you ask for some? You ain't really want none Banana muffin cooking time. It's fun, yehey. But my arms are a little sore because of all the push-ups i did earlier (yeah right, i was trying to do push-ups but really appeared to be just bending my arms in the least possible way. I want a job man. I want something to do. I can't be left alone with just my thoughts, I'll go stir crazy. I have too many praning thoughts that when left to their own devices turn my mind into a whole mood of suspicion and generally stormy weather. My goal is to lose 5 punds in two weeks, kaya ko kaya un without rice? Hmm we'll just have to see now don't we? Current Mood: in aminute or so i will be (Comment on this)
Friday, February 17th, 2006
9:48 am	more rhum and coke please!!! Wowee, I had fun last night (getting a little hammered though not fully wasted) at the Nike exhibit thingy that featured my lovey Team Manila, Electro Lychee and Collision Theory. Great fun I tell you. And I missed that, going to parties, mingling and having fun. It was hard to let loose some time ago because I really had a lot on my plate. But now that I don't, whooopeee! Bring the party on!!! I forgot what I was going to say... anyway next time na lang. Current Mood: chippity! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
6:51 pm	Shopgirl eeeeehhhhh!!!! Declared favorite lovey movie Ay ang ganda ganda ng Shopgirl! I lab Steve Martin!!!! Yehey! No, no, don't get me wrong, I don't have a thing for old McDonalds. Eh kse ang galing lang nung movie, it's so nice and touching and sweet and true! Yeeeeheeee dalawang beses ko na siyang napanuod in a span of three days! Hahahahahahahahaahah. But trust me, all your inferior feelings of not belonging and of wanting your life to just start already will be voiced out by Claire Danes' character. Nice nice. And Jason Schwartzman (Tama ba yan??) ah ewan, basta ang kulit niya n hyper na ewan minsan irritating but well siya ung nakatuluyan eh so sige na nga. Anyhu.... I am officially out of a job. Yehey yippeeee! Nyak nyak, ang sideline ko ngayon ay: DRIVER ng aking ina. It's okay, masaya ka chika ang aking loving mommy, and I get a lot of free lunches na masarap. Buti na alng mahilig kumain ang nanay ko. I now spend my time alternately lounging around the house and going on day-long trips into the big city to find a company who wouldn't mind having me on board. There's one out there, I believe... I believe! Went to Baclaran kanina. I swear this out of a job thing is turning me into an explorer extraordinaire again. I have learned that I can spend an entire day by myself, just walking around and still feel content to be alone. Weirdo? Nyak di naman, it's just that I don't mind being alone sometimes. It proves that I don't go stir crazy when other things are not available. Yehey, I'm not crazy after all (back story? wag na lang. Basta un na un). As I was saying, I was at Baclaran church kanina, making an attempt to continue my once weekly pilgrimage there. I had confession too, it's been a looooong time since that. Ok I admit I was half trying to get seriously into it and half mockin the priest in my head but the angelic side of me won out. (Naaakkss). I think I'll be able to continue that again. I really want to. :) And I strolled around in Makati today (in part of the adenturer extraordinaire mode) and I sa a loooot of guys walking around with boquets and baskets of flowers. That's when I remembered na Valentines pala. (Well actually naalala ko nung binati ako ni mon kagabi, awww sweet. Pero in the middle of Baclaran andd riding and falling asleep on the bus, medyo nawala siya sa isip ko. Dory syndrome. Ang mahal na pala ng laliw (flowers) ngayon! My god, buti hindi ako lalaki. At swerte ni Mon hindi ako mahilig sa flowers! Nakanmpucha 3 small buds for 300? Nakupo! Pero I admit maganda tignan ang mga boquet na nakikita ko sa kalsada... pwedeng pwede pang altar. At ang dami kong nakita sa mall na mga teenaged lovers na kinikilig kilig pa ng konti habang HHWW sila sa mall, na naka school uniform pa, naku makita kayo ng mga nanay niyo patay kayo. Oh well, matagal tagal din akong nasa mall... may paperback pala ng Wicked dito... bibilhin ko siya! Mwahahahahahaha.. hindi lang ngayon. Pag may trabaho na ako. Sabi ko wala munang fringe buys habang wala pang income na steady. Hahahahahaha. O siya cge. Current Mood: yehey! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 8th, 2006
5:59 am	freedom... freedom.... feeeeheeedoooohoom!!! Let me define to you what freedom really means: 1. Not having to wear black work pants ever again. 2. Not wearing high heels that spell murder on your feet. 3. Company presentations and outings. Nuff said. 4. Tight-assed bosses. 5. Tight-assed company owners. 6. Tight-assed officemates. 7. Tight-assed, well, tight-assed everything. 8. Slippers and sneakers all the way! 9. No more polos! 10. No more stupid company policies. 11. Lunch break? All day lunch break! 12. Silence in the workplace...no music? defeaning silence, spare me please! 13. Mountains and mountains of files. 14. No more sneaking suspicion that you don't belong. 15. No more worrying about another monday knowing that you're geting up to do something you don't want to do. Current Mood: so sue me (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
9:21 pm	blurt it out! Note: Do you find yourself suddenly breaking out into spontaneous journal writing? Well, this is an example. The first day of the last of my life. That’s how I felt when reality dawned on me that I, Caitlin Poblador am 22 years old, and I have no career whatsoever. I am dependent on myself and myself alone but I have nothing to fall back on yet. I begin to wonder about the past year, where has it gone? What did I do? What messing around have I been getting at that at the end of 2005 I still have no career investments and the best thing that I may have done is to have become part of magazine, which I left eventually. Being the person that I am, easily bored and always easy to let go, with no attachments at all, I begin to feel scared. What if one day I find myself at 28, still no future, and being so depressed, having to depend on other to make myself happy. I’m still lucky now that I can still get up in the morning and feel hopeful about my future. I’m young, I know I have a lot of energy and a lot of passion to get things done. But the fact remains that I wasted a year of my life looking for something that was really right in front of me all along. But I know I shouldn’t be really too hard on myself. After all, youth lends us all the tendency to act just a wee bit crazy. All right totally bedlam crazy is actually what we are granted when we’re young. And I guess the good things about what I’m going through is that I haven’t caused any damage to my heart, my mind and my soul that would potentially cause me harm in the future. At least I think I haven’t. What I can wish for is that, well this time I will make things right. This time I will commit myself to something. I’m actually quite relieved now even though I will be jobless in 30 days or so. Relieved in the fact that I will not spend my life chained to a job and to an amount that does not define me. And in the end will prevent me from defining myself. Maybe I’m just talking crazy here, after all many would disagree with most or even all of my career decisions. But that’s choice for you. One thing may be right for you but not for the next Maria or Tina or Joy. So I guess I feel free. Free in the sense that I can concentrate on finding what I want to do, and stick with it, or let it stick to me at the very least. Expectations? I have none. Maybe just to realize that what I’m doing is making me happy, and that I will someday dfind mysle fthinking back on this awful mess, shake my head and say, “Ah, kids. Had I known before what I know now, I would have saved myself a lot of time.” Ageing is fun. Each day you wake up knowing that you know more now than you did yesterday. Hopefully, the process of learning never stops for anyone of us, because wll, that would be boring. So lesson learned… Don’t jump blindly into a job. Jump with eyes wide open and no fear in your heart. Current Mood: kinda sorta cool type thing (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
8:11 am	good apollo, im burning star What I miss about working for PULP isn't the office. God knows I've had enough of ipis scurrying about while I type. And it isn't the pay. That much is certain. Ehehehe. Not that I'm a person who gets motivated to work by money (well, maybe I am a little). It's the writing reviews that I miss. It's so much fun because you get to bash what you don't like and worship in print those that you do. So... since I'm not able to do that anymore, I'll just do it here, in my livejournal. I'm gonna make me happy. I pretty much only got hooked on Coheed and Cambria ever since I heard the line "Good eye, sniper." on the radio. Little did I know that these guys already had 2 previous albums. Blame our Willie Revillame loving countrymen for their cds not being able to get into our country. So anyway, I got hold of a pirated cd of In Keeping Secrets of the Silent Earth from a friend of my sister's and extracted it right away. From first listen, all I could say was... "Yipeee!" for lack of a better word. I mean, wow, really, it blew me away. The complexity of the sound, the lyrics, the themes, that big guy's strangely weird voice, it all just reels you in. It's something you don't get to hear too often, not when you're being bombarded daily by silly dance tunes and muck that passes of as alt-rock here in this country. Anyway, the opening instrumental alone.... tun tununun tunun... so haunting. yeah! Follow it up with "The restless children sit and mourn the graves, of those they've never seen before." (I hope that was right). Man, listening to that album was like listening to an epic raging battle of sorts. The grand-sounding melodies, it's pure aural luxury. Not only that, it's fun music. You may not understand most of the lyrics because well, they're so intrivately written and deeply encoded with the songwriter's viewpoint. Often I find myslef singing along to "If I can't have her, then why should I stay anymore..." in an oddly tenor-sounding voice and raising my closed fist in the air. I got my boyfriend hooked to it too, which is fun, especially since he bought 3 of their albums on a recent trip to Singapore. Yey! He's a visual person and I think he'd agree to me saying that Coheed's brand of music is visual, it makes you htink of war-ravaged plains with "Man you own jackhammer!" And lets you imagine freely the kind of woman who inspired the words "Well you're just as I Presumed, a whore in sheep's clothing..." On the new album GoodApollo: I'm burning Star IV..." If indeed it was a woman. And the album packaging is crazy, as per mentioned boyfriend, who is an art director, heartily approves of the design comprising of images of a horde of children with blank faces marching on, and Rasputin-like men in a grenn tinged environment doing god knows what. Coheed is just the kind that makes you think of depravity and hope and dreams all in one song. Their albums are mesmerizing and a great joy to listen to. i can't give it any higher praise than that. Current Mood: i love new cds (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 7th, 2005
1:00 pm	the pupung lament and never ending band bashing Mon and I went to tiendeistas yesterday after a whole day at Tanay, Rizal. Note to self: Next time you go to a shoot in far-flung Rizal, bring food. We were served lunch comprising of daing na bangus. Who serves daing na bangus na hindi boneless I might add, when there's no place to sit???? Hay anyhu, so pagdating namin sa tiendestas gutom na gutom na kami. We ate at Sisigland where presumably, the sisig is good. Wrong! Mediocre is the best I can call it. The barbeque was better tasting. Call yourselves barabeque land and be done with it. That's why I began to miss Pupungs even more.... huhu, no more crispy sisig with egg for me. Hay, good old days. I was dirving home late one night in a mango ice monster induced stupor when I was shaken, nay horrified to hear a simple plan song playing on NU. My gulay, they really think too much of themselves don't they? Do they really think that serving up a second " I care about the world, I'm a concerned human being" song will make me take them seriously? Yes yes I know it's a good thing to be concerned about the state of our world and such but c'mon, here's a band who can't even pull up their pants for crying out loud, and they're singing about the evil corrupting young girls who want to be thinner to be on magazines. Hello? If you're gonna pretend like you even know anything about world issues I suggest going deeper than the stuff cosmo girl and teen magazine fodder. Pilit masyado eh. Don't pretend like you're all that when you're just a bunch of punks who cant's even play their instruments and whose singer sounds so nasal i swear I'd prefer it if Fran Drescher was singing. Naiirita talaga ako sa bandang un!!!!!!! And back now to our regular programming.... I don't wanna see some of my old friends anymore. I know, I know I'm a bad human being. And no, the reason I don't want to hang out with them anymore isn't because I think I'm above them. It's just that I think we don't share the same interests anymore. Sure, blowing your brains out drinking until 4am was fun for like 5 seconds but c'mon, when you have work the next day, is it really wise to come to work with a hangover, I mean, how will you be able to work? And yes I'm concentrating on doing good now, so alcohol is definitely not on my priority list. Whatever happened to having fun even while staying in? And I just don't consider it fun anymore to act all stupid and complain about your parents or your life all the time. My teen angst ran out about 2 years ago and I really don't think that blaming your parents or anyone else about how you turn out is the best thing to do to make you feel better about yourself. And I don't think it's fun to make a person who you consider as your friend feel guilty about not wanting to drink to death anymore (Which is actually a good thing)or having different interests. I can't even have a decent conversation about say movies or music without drawing blank faces. All they want to do is reminisce about the old days when we were mad at the world, the school and we didn't give a fuck about anything. Because I do give a fuck now. I do care about the consequences of my actions. And why the hell shouldn't I? Another thing, bringing up the fact that someone in the group liked you like 4 years ago even though he got shot down like 3 times is really getting old. It's not fun, it's annoying. Get over it!!!! It just pisses me off the way they always lay this guilt trip on me. Hey, I'd understand if someone else was feeling the same thing. To each her own. Oh well, gotta get back to work. Current Mood: bah! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 23rd, 2005
8:50 am	it's the third first day in a year This has been one hell of a year, 3 jobs... no make that 4 jobs in a year! Grabe para akong nangongolekta ng company id... ehehe anyway. ok lang naman, i think im really settled na ngayon dito. I have even brought the pichur of mon and me to place on my desk. ehehehee. Baon galore na ulit ako, tuna variations are good. ehehehee.... don't know what i'll be doing later on... hmm magkikita ba kami?? I think so... bwisit si sheila, ehehe, inindyan ako kahapon.. huhuhu all set pa naman akong makipag daldalan. anyhu... I saw a powerpuff episode kanina... nakakatawa, kse ang kalaban nila mga gulay na giant. tapos lahat ng parents sa townsville na hypnotize, kaya ang mga kiddies lang ang mag save ng day! Ang kanilang panlaban sa crazy invading giant gulay? Kakainin nila! hehehe with matching rabbits and goats as accomplices. yehey! Once again the day is saved thanks to the powerpuff girls! Current Mood: haaaay peace (Comment on this)
Friday, September 9th, 2005
8:57 am	mushy haters keep out Ok this is new territory for me. But I'll try everything at least once. Slowly your warmth spreads Blanketing me with undeniably certainty. The clarity in the way you see me I know and feel without hearing it. You are a thousand things reborn, Deepest memories of belonging Happiness from small things. You're goodness through and through. Nothing could replace this presence, your space, this shared solitude with you. The lazy scent of wanting and needing The laughter in you Undo a lifetime of not knowing, Not caring, Not thinking. I leave in your steady gaze My life and heart. Current Mood: Bahala na si Batman (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
8:39 am	Click here. Take the quiz. Post your results. ( See caitypong's results. ) * Hello earthlings! I have been soooo out of touch from the digital world for so long I am starting to wonder... well nothing. I have a wee bit of a situation in my hands. Well obviously I've always wanted to write.That's what I want to do, despite the fact that I have been taking a few sidetrips along the way. And now I am in a magazine...again. But I don't know, pay's manageable. But as everyones who's ever worked knows that writing DOES NOT pay. I won't get rich doing it. Then here comes and oppurtunity to be in advertising, a chance to get rich whilst writing and conceptualizing. Albeit it's not purely writing but I'm hoping it'll pay well. I really don't know what the fuck I'm going to do. In my defense, what I'm writing for now, well let's just say that I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about. I might as well have been typing in gibberish or chabakano. I think I'm out of my element here.... ooooh meanderings of a confused 20 something. How hard is it to find what you really want to do in life? Why does it seem that I'm a little bit more lost than other people????? Any advice will help. Calling out to all disenfranchised people. Where does everything fit in? Current Mood: dito ba? O dito ba? (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 30th, 2005
10:51 am	gutom na ito leche, naiimbyerna na ako sa sarili ko, hindi ko alam kung ano ba talagang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko shet. Ano ba ang asking career of choice? ewan hindi ko alam!!! Kung pwede lang akong magkaroon ng career sa pagbabasa at pagttype at pageencode for the rest of my life ok na ako. parang un lang ung mga bagay na at ease na at ease akong gawin pero naman, wala namgn trabaho na un ang ginagawa na malaki ang sweldo ano? shet talaga shet. Pero naiinis lalo ako kasi bakit ba ganito ang mood ko? once a month talaga na babadtrip ako sa buong mundo, nakakainis lahat as in LAHAT. parang kahit maganda ung gising ko, amapapaisip nanaman ako ng mga kung ano ano ata ano pa at masisira na ang araw ko dahil lahat na nga desisyon na gagawin ko sa buong araw na un ay base na sa bad trip kong mga naiisp. nakakainis na talaga. Na ffeel ko naman pag nagsisimula na ung mood ko na un eh, kaya ko naman ata syiang pigilan pero bakit parang hindi ko nagagawa??? hay ewan ko talaga, kelangan ko ata ng matindi tinding breathing excercise para ma ilabas ang lahat ng negative eklush na ito. teka. inhale... exhale... inhale... exhale... hinga hinga hinga okay basta wag na lang isipin ang labadtripan, wag nang maging praning, wag nang magduda, wag nang mag feeling martyr, wag na magfeeling kawawa, wag na magalalang nalalamangan, dapata hayaan na lang, dapat esy na lang. wag na isiping lagign palaging on the lookout sa mga bagay na pwedeng makasakit sa akin, basta kung nangyayari man, malalaman ko rin un sa future, at hindi ko dapat sishin ang sarili ko sakahit anong masamang iyon dahil ginagawa ko naman ang lahat ng pwede kong gawin. basta hinga na lang, hayaan nang mangyari ang kung ano mang mangyayari... basta ipagpatuloy na lang ang pagiisp na maganda ang lahat ng mangyayari, hindi pwedeng mangyayari ang pinaka nakakatakot kong naiisp hinding hinding hindi. kailangang i-deny kasi hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kung mangyayari un, hindi talaga, parang magsasara na alng siguro ang lahat ng life systems ko at malulugmok na ako sa kadiliman forever and ever, hindi ulit babangon. pero wala namang dapat i-deny sigyuro, umaarte na namana ang laging nagpapahamak sa akin na drama queen ko sa loob ng aking damdamin. lagi na lang siyang nagsasalit ng mga kung ano anong mga bagay na wala namang basehan, wala namang sense. Dapata patayin ang drama queen na un. kase kung wala sya ok na ang buhay. ang mga dapat na hindi naman iniisip ay hindi na maiisip. Dapat magtiwala sa nabuo na ng matagal na panahon. dapat magtiwala dun kase kung wala un wala na ring aasahang maganda. wala naman talagang dapat isipin eh. nakakalimutan lang konti ang mga dating ginagawa. pero madali namang intindihin eh, mahirap talaga ang sitwasyon. hindi pwedeng palaging masaya, hindi pwedeng susuko sa konting nakalimutang kabaitan. pero kahit habang sinasabi ko un nahihirapan akong paniwalaan, pero kailangang matutuhan un. kasi un ung matagal ko nang hindi ginagawa, matutunang hindi magreklamo, matutong tanggapin ang kahinaan ng mga bagay. hindi pwedeng may hindi ka nagustuhan eh magiiba na ang ugali mo. hindi pwede. kelangan mong tagalan. kelangan mong tanggapin kung iyon talaga ang gusto mo. at un talaga ang gusto ko. wala nang iba. un lang. wala nang iba. Current Mood: waahwaah (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 2nd, 2005
3:37 pm	it's 3:37- ang banta ng clock watchers Wala ang aking clock watching buddy na si arlandia kaya magisa akong nagccountdown dito... pretending to do my stats but really just trying to avoid doing interviews until tomorrow when i'll go at it full force. and i'm listening now to the dissociatives, quirky beepbeep UFO sounding daniel johns, and do i hear tambourines???? it's nice makes me want to curl up in a ball in the crook of mon's arm under a fluffy comforter with the rain pouring outside. am i sharing too much? nah. 3:41, my bitchy boss and overzealous superior aren't anywhere around, ehhehehe takas muna ng LJ. Ooopsie... 3:54 laaaapit naaaaaa!!! what are my plans? 1. Go home 2. lin in bed 3. watch tv until dinner time 4. watch more tv 5. talk to mon 6. go to sleep very productive indeed. 3:56, ahahahahahaha Current Mood: homey homey (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
3:40 pm	1. Total number of books I own: Erm, I haven't really counted. Does anyone really? 2. Last book I bought: This book on sale at powerbooks, I got it for just P75. And no wonder it's so cheap, it sucked at the end. I even forgot the title, oh wait, 'Bad Company' by what's her name Brown, i think. I thought it was interesting because it had a murder mystery theme, but it turns out the only mystery was why the book was even published to begin with. 3. Last book I read: Re-read Angels and Demons by Dan Brown, ok ok I know, but it was a new one, Mon got me an illustrated edition so I could see the piece of art they were describing. 4. Five books that mean a lot to me: Memoirs of a geisha- so vivid... now also an upcoming movie, although it will star Zhang Ziyi. (not japanese!!!!) Angela's Ashes- so saad huhuhu, children drinking sugared water and not having shoes, huhuhuh One hundred years of solitude- It hit me the first time, though the second read got me more. I was just confused with the names at first. Harry Potter books 1-5. I love that little wizard. What can I say? The princess and the pea, so shoot me, it's a fairytale, my favorite. It has no moral lesson and the thesis is that real princesses are very sensitive that they can feel a pea from under 20 mattresses. 5. Tag 5 people and ask them to fill this out in their LJs: Erm I'm not sure if I even have 5 friends in my LJ :) Current Mood: 30 minutes to uwian (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
1:54 pm	i was watching tv last night, i couldn't fall asleep, bad trip nga eh, umuwi ako ng maaga para makatulog tapos hindi namn nangyayari. shet. tapos napadaan ako dun sa bagong series ng channel 2, ung may mga pulubing bata, nakaka deppress, kasi naman, ang naabutan ko, ung isang batang pulubi (na medyo masyadong chubby para magmukang authentic na batang kalye i might add) nagpapatago siya ng pera sa nagbebenta ng candy sa kalsada na friend niya na aleng matanda. malamang nagpapatago siya kase bawal sa sindikato nila na mag hoarde ng palimos eh, anyway, pinapabigay niya ung pera sa nanay niya. dun pa lang eh nakakalungkot na, diba? huhuhuhu anyway tapos ayun may dumating na mga batang pulubi meanies tapos inagaw ung pera na nasa brown envelope, tapos sabi "Lagot ka ngayon!" huhuhuhu mean spirited batang pulubi huhuhuhuhuhu. na lungkot tuloy ako... ayun lang, pero teka maglalabas lang ng sama ng loob.... i know walang siyang masamang intensyon, i think. pero minsan ung mga hirit niya nakakainis eh. parang kasalanan ko ba??? anong gusto niyang gawin ko? hoy!!!! alam ko pero bakit ba? ikaw ba? hindi naman ah! tangina kung kung gusto mo ang gusto ko eh matigil tigil ka!!!! ah basta bad trip ung mga hirit niyang ganun!!! tapos eto ngayon... ewan. ewan ko talaga. miss mo ba? sorry ha!!! pero wala kang magagawa. un na un. tanggapin mo na lang. WALA KANG MAGAGAWA! kahit maglumpasay ka diyan tangina mo, wala kang magagawaaaa!!!!! shet umiinit ulo ko. shet ka shet ka!!!! grrrrr nakakalamang ka na nga eh, ano pang gusto mo? sayo na lang? hindi pwede tangina mo! hindi ko kelangan mangagaw kasi wala ka nang magagawa. shet ka shet ka shet kaaaaa!!!!!! Current Mood: wala ka talaga magagawa!!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
1:35 pm	hum humm humming away "Together, together, I wanna show you, my heart is oh so true, and all the love i have is especially for you." ehehhehe. That's coming from my officemate's playlist... a guy's playlist, people in recruitment are just plain fucking queer. Now on to my topic, it's just very elusive you know, even when you think you won't have a problem having it, you wake up one day and realize, something's awry... MY TIN NUMBER STILL HASN'T BEEN PROCESSED! FUCKING EMPLOYMENT AGENCY!!!! grrr, i wish they'd do somehting about it, my god!!!!! punta na lang akong metropolis, mas madali pa daw! Sobrang 30 minutes lang! Shet talaga!!! Anyhu, I'm on leave on friday! yehey! i won't be doing any work, i'll just be kicking back and relaxing, no plans yet... but it might just be that, sleeping all day, watching TV, eating, not worrying about my fuckign quota or anything for that matter, this wil be evry nice!!!! 3 whole days without work, what fun!!!! Can't wait til friday!!! Current Mood: weehee (Comment on this)